My own two feet
I haven’t written a post in ages, it’s 5:47am and I can’t fall back asleep. I’ve been up for an hour just thinking about random things and how time just seems to be flying by. Over the years I always felt “pushed” to be and act a certain way, do certain things, feel a way that I felt at the time I was SUPPOSED to be feeling. Always felt that people were judging me based on my previous acts and cared so much about what other people thought. That stops now. I’m going to live my life how I want to live it. Do things when I feel I’m READY to do them, and I feel now is the time that I’m finally ready to do so. I’ve been having this yearning yet curious feeling to begin discovering myself with the help of god. Now I’m not a big “religion” person. I’ve never really been a believer. But lately I’m just plain curious. I want to know what’s out there, I want guidance and help to relieve this heavy heart of mine. For the past few days I’ve been thinking about just going to church, or picking up a bible and seeing what it’s all about. But I want to do this on my own. No comments from anyone or pushing of any sort or even the ” I told you so’s” from anyone. I want to help myself. I just want to do this alone, with my own two feet. 👣❤
